So many things to do, so little time...
Ramadhan is approaching in 10 days and im not ready.
Not ready spiritually and mentally. Im at lost to balance my studies and my mental health.
Now, back to books. (Just started :( )
Saturday, April 3, 2021
Saturday, January 30, 2021
It's 2021 bitches.
Hello, It's 31st January today.
And it had been the longest month ever. I just finished my medicine posting for 3 freaking months (supposed only 8 weeks) from November 2020-Jan 2021. Everyday was a struggle, anxiety, feeling incompetent and im doubting my career everyday. We didnt got the chance to even go to the hospital and honestly i think that's the reason why i struggle with my medicine posting. I can't remember what was taught and i only had to imagine, plus with the pressure put behind us, esp by Prof M and Dr K, it's not helping. Don't know la dr batch keluaran covid ni bodoh semuanya.
25th january i planned to have a picnic birthday with niko but we're still in MCO period shits. Can't even cross border coz currently im in Melaka and he's in Cheras. Nevertheless, i hoped i did make him happy that day. I bought him a customized leather cardholder. It came 2 days early! and alllll of his favourite food in a day! Dominos pizza, chicken, durian lava cake, 2 pints of inside scoop icecream, 500ml of macadamia coffee. I really love seeing him happy and i hope i can spoil him for the rest of my life. His smile and laugh are the reasons that i make it everyday.
We're 7 years old this year! and i can't wait to spend my whole life with him... couldnt really imagine seeing him everyday though... must be really nice coz i get to cook and feed him a lot!!! He deserve all the best thing in this world, honestly. He's the best boyfriend in the whole world. Ceh i speak like mcm baru couple hahah no but really all i wanted at the end of the day is speaking to him on the phone. There's not even a single day where he'll sleep without me, he's so clingy and manja. Miss you a lot sayang. 💘
2021 really feels like 2020 part two lol. I just want to graduate and get the hell out of manipal. Can't really decide whether i wanna continue being a doctor though. I just wanna have a happy life and do what i enjoy doing for the rest of my life coz life so short to waking up and be anxious everyday ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜
That's it for my life update, let's see when will i write further haha
Till then, xoxo.
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