tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-50570686003815599082024-03-12T20:53:55.657-07:00Pieces of my selfEven if you let the whole world know about all your problem, what can they do? Turn to the one who heals.NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.comBlogger64125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-81339546170912115802023-11-13T07:05:00.000-08:002023-11-13T07:10:26.907-08:00Day 001. Our home <p style="text-align: justify;"> </p><p style="text-align: justify;">11.11.2023 - </p><p style="text-align: justify;">It was the day that we picked up our house key. It was also the day that we went to pickup our bed from my Bukit Beruntung house. You were there throughout the process with me and i could not be anymore grateful to have you by my side. </p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="199" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgMTV1jWAmja1e7AkMUs3giIthGybXfM82xb4GYMOi3ZZJdNqQBYbPpoND-1rtlTmq5QnzZo-4Q_KZyzeOb6MbGsgDXVe4780SFInl7mZ8zzsNeChpzdsGBVG84j4Anqmrfaf_FgjPFbEZViOtCnP593J91BXgusO36tSCFqYv38gBerO19azuDSVNcg6A=w149-h199" width="149" /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi-BV8cOAVoOZ9daCZQwuZwSsGGXNkJ0u5AgRwwPeCabMg75czNTyx6H53EsMj0NiU_EktmajJywr9nO1MF-Ds_NqGgDtw7o116YzpY-S1VDrJ21Jfb8duriDJDKL8-fMnbdQX3ojDqKA5H9mD08dHSpMzVUbiF9xHzFJK1nkECbqVOQ7KL7Smrogl59uk" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="196" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi-BV8cOAVoOZ9daCZQwuZwSsGGXNkJ0u5AgRwwPeCabMg75czNTyx6H53EsMj0NiU_EktmajJywr9nO1MF-Ds_NqGgDtw7o116YzpY-S1VDrJ21Jfb8duriDJDKL8-fMnbdQX3ojDqKA5H9mD08dHSpMzVUbiF9xHzFJK1nkECbqVOQ7KL7Smrogl59uk=w147-h196" width="147" /></a></p><p style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjZPXxQ_72AgGXQssqCXgbyKphuojNSwzQ-j4IXSVE0CZxEVoEtj5ExO9OlqYj2ELV4pIwH7ThHtqoebLzxsbDk-9o-Hn1JSMNSHoOlDclRHmKwB-bUo3hCi0obyPdYoRy2xxhXvHHkQRyFSMksOGQmiPrIAFRr-dVbLHaY9Eiec0OmuxcK1IyqNzq8W2s" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"> <img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="198" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjZPXxQ_72AgGXQssqCXgbyKphuojNSwzQ-j4IXSVE0CZxEVoEtj5ExO9OlqYj2ELV4pIwH7ThHtqoebLzxsbDk-9o-Hn1JSMNSHoOlDclRHmKwB-bUo3hCi0obyPdYoRy2xxhXvHHkQRyFSMksOGQmiPrIAFRr-dVbLHaY9Eiec0OmuxcK1IyqNzq8W2s=w149-h198" width="149" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgIphnTYsemhSkMYI6kJTeU0fEOqUxFZASpkr8tdgGoTK-6TkZ0lM6s_SrvcxfSWnDkhYWNK_1mshR4eZYbWMpkc3KJz_7P9R2R8QxBXbdyug4JocNFNhq4H76fBVB6VLrcC51zCGbiRR9hjdmf3wjj_13NDKSqaapO0kP7QxrKS9wDbIZRIsnZ-pvh5gw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="177" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgIphnTYsemhSkMYI6kJTeU0fEOqUxFZASpkr8tdgGoTK-6TkZ0lM6s_SrvcxfSWnDkhYWNK_1mshR4eZYbWMpkc3KJz_7P9R2R8QxBXbdyug4JocNFNhq4H76fBVB6VLrcC51zCGbiRR9hjdmf3wjj_13NDKSqaapO0kP7QxrKS9wDbIZRIsnZ-pvh5gw=w138-h177" width="138" /></a></p><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;">12.11.2023 - </p><p style="text-align: justify;">We spent RM400 stocking up the necessities for our home. It was the fist ikea trip that we were really into it. We went into every corner of the decor and imagined if it was in our home, all sorts of emotions rushed through my veins. We sat on the sofa, we sat at the dinner table and in the end we chose the coffee table bcs we wanted to safe some space. All that matters is that im doing this with you.</p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhSCU8d46kCxbGnL_qD5aKNF_hZxJJxslT9eMmeE0HAEOHfAPidmiCOb_j2YnNyoQt4dMsyVvK42Vm_YucDVKaDa5E2esDebw__OrY7Bp_ayflOin9-5lkQFcZdV5YQZqqu515jeb-0RNk2rKPC5m5gFpzWNxzpw4SJbZd-m0sjew7WEsYzASPwEtJxG54" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="175" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhSCU8d46kCxbGnL_qD5aKNF_hZxJJxslT9eMmeE0HAEOHfAPidmiCOb_j2YnNyoQt4dMsyVvK42Vm_YucDVKaDa5E2esDebw__OrY7Bp_ayflOin9-5lkQFcZdV5YQZqqu515jeb-0RNk2rKPC5m5gFpzWNxzpw4SJbZd-m0sjew7WEsYzASPwEtJxG54=w233-h175" width="233" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEj27uLA1bos23vlUzvHGV6k_zcSAFdJApccRZJ-dtWuo4Gel1q4qgGEdi3CbBjT2X47UNnLAmmJUNPpgtDFz3yzMmQO2cXo7Sen-E1_CIs5dMi98kdFuhpzvYlQ3P-Z0-rTXZfMqb7E4llXdZgCww0UMje9efZl04ldVBLFIm4IPauYNuHnX8DqV2qjIOY" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEj27uLA1bos23vlUzvHGV6k_zcSAFdJApccRZJ-dtWuo4Gel1q4qgGEdi3CbBjT2X47UNnLAmmJUNPpgtDFz3yzMmQO2cXo7Sen-E1_CIs5dMi98kdFuhpzvYlQ3P-Z0-rTXZfMqb7E4llXdZgCww0UMje9efZl04ldVBLFIm4IPauYNuHnX8DqV2qjIOY" width="180" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEh4HGxfKn9n57ARbv1y79GODzYYsP1MxYkN0CPWk_S3A2Px1QewHvziRe5uqWG-4H6xs38ICCozFK8aq5QclubPuSUv8jmxZeHVmkiRhPQSXK9U768p6Vi3cZYhm0dLwPkH6pKWFJv8udYYjQdM8vap-apNEsrewiAiBs0vmyRgZChFynSuS-OSJg9w0GQ" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="207" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEh4HGxfKn9n57ARbv1y79GODzYYsP1MxYkN0CPWk_S3A2Px1QewHvziRe5uqWG-4H6xs38ICCozFK8aq5QclubPuSUv8jmxZeHVmkiRhPQSXK9U768p6Vi3cZYhm0dLwPkH6pKWFJv8udYYjQdM8vap-apNEsrewiAiBs0vmyRgZChFynSuS-OSJg9w0GQ=w155-h207" width="155" /></a></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">13.11.2023 - </p><p style="text-align: justify;">Straight from Ecah and Azwan's wedding, we went to our home and did A LOT of cleaning. Gosh, my heart fell for you all over again. I. cannot. believe. that we were that in the same roof, sorting out OUR bed. You also took over to mop the whole house. Ahhh </p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiKNRWU8RtD7IL3yBjkk1hgB2bFzTMAsAGA4eF4lujn9QTzu-yPXBoHwQXqnogk6jP1Tj4V6Yls9m1scAZEUQIiToHNUNiwFg0A78jTJqTDpkzk_aEazwndSUijaTigUgqe9hD3vuxTIDRkleT31EX80Y3o63rXg55KV0dj_EG5kTYlBiflvxqIcULGET0" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiKNRWU8RtD7IL3yBjkk1hgB2bFzTMAsAGA4eF4lujn9QTzu-yPXBoHwQXqnogk6jP1Tj4V6Yls9m1scAZEUQIiToHNUNiwFg0A78jTJqTDpkzk_aEazwndSUijaTigUgqe9hD3vuxTIDRkleT31EX80Y3o63rXg55KV0dj_EG5kTYlBiflvxqIcULGET0" width="180" /></a></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I told you i wanted to pee but i was so geli to even step my feet into the toilet cs dead roaches were all over. And heck it smells so bad.. then you straight went inside an remove all the cockroacehs and even clean the toilet bowl for me 😭😭😭 i dont even close the door properly cs im still scared... of nothing..</p><p style="text-align: justify;">10 mins later, i told you i wanted to poo.. then i said theres a dead lizard giving off the bad smell :(( you straight away went inside and remove all that, even deep clean inside the toilet bowl again so i could be comfortable... Ahhh, youre a heaven sent. That moment, i knew... im making a correct decision to have you as my husband... I fell for you all over again like when i was 18.</p><p style="text-align: justify;">You then cleaned the whole kitchen and we wiped the big ass windows together. </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhYTL5J2FOJ3xZwumB4BiXssDiVrD95NbLrfyqDaNmAbR2kOG1VDSd9aLqylEbIxouiSWbhvkarbMKlSouZlbfO-rKCZHFY9DZ4pduJtYMZocy90yNokAtXD1VHSVxXB6LefDJEs7wZOBX2LHKCQzWkesDJ4J8aiE6nvFKLOfs6tCzEFVflPHSIy76908U" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="660" data-original-width="1179" height="179" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhYTL5J2FOJ3xZwumB4BiXssDiVrD95NbLrfyqDaNmAbR2kOG1VDSd9aLqylEbIxouiSWbhvkarbMKlSouZlbfO-rKCZHFY9DZ4pduJtYMZocy90yNokAtXD1VHSVxXB6LefDJEs7wZOBX2LHKCQzWkesDJ4J8aiE6nvFKLOfs6tCzEFVflPHSIy76908U" width="320" /></a></div></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Took a break to have our first food in that house together, it was the burnt cheesecake from BASK! :) </p><p></p><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><p></p><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiQMB9N0rvHLnpjdCuihU6WrO2K2b9KXTzGKVMID26cPci57p2BRGICpAovdz51HmKkOYglvbPdp9wpr9Gf79AUDtshc9T8UmWThHviFJenosBzqGeDa2ERHEsZ903SY1Of-jtS00_cvmhSVy_fJgitryd68Vaott3q6xAuH3yx0s3HJ1O7A4CWgvIy28c" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiQMB9N0rvHLnpjdCuihU6WrO2K2b9KXTzGKVMID26cPci57p2BRGICpAovdz51HmKkOYglvbPdp9wpr9Gf79AUDtshc9T8UmWThHviFJenosBzqGeDa2ERHEsZ903SY1Of-jtS00_cvmhSVy_fJgitryd68Vaott3q6xAuH3yx0s3HJ1O7A4CWgvIy28c" width="180" /></a></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Before we headed home, we watched the view together, listed out all the other things that we should buy to complete the house. You kept asking me to think if theres anything we should buy to complete our house, i could not think of any, because for me my home is already complete. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">You, are my home. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">x</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><p></p>NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-35265124662551598552023-10-15T06:22:00.002-07:002023-10-15T06:22:29.383-07:00im going to be a wife<p> T-61 days! </p><p><br /></p><p>Feeling sooo surreal. I started counting<span> </span> when it was 170 plus days, now its only less than 2 months/8 weeks. when people ask me what do i feel, deep down the only answer is "I'm excited." It was the moment ive been waiting for ever since i met him. Now he will mine and i will be his forever and ever sampai syurga. Each day i kept on missing him more. </p><p>Today we chose our invitation card design, chose our song and eyeing our house furniture together. He mentioned "rumah kita" brought out the giddiness in me. I cant wait for our day, sayang. </p><p><br /></p><p>I can't wait to not be parted away from you forever. </p><p>I can't wait to be taken care by you. </p><p>I can't wait to pur my love to you. </p><p>I can't wait to cook meals for you. </p><p>I can't wait to wake up next to you and it's just us. </p><p>I can't wait to travel the world with you. </p><p>I can't wait to watch movies together at the comfort of our home. </p><p>I can't wait to buy groceries with you. </p><p>I can't wait to be hugged every single day. </p><p>I can't wait to have someone to come home to. </p><p><br /></p><p>I love you sayang. </p><p>I always pray that semoga jodoh kita panjang, may Allah eases our way to be halal, i pray that he gave us just enough rezeki to provide to each other and to always keep you safe and sound wherever you go. I miss you already. </p><p><br /></p><p>Truly, far. </p>NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-86823674781259001702023-07-22T22:10:00.001-07:002023-07-22T22:10:25.029-07:007th May 2023 - I GOT ENGAGED!<p> I honestly never imagined i have an engagement day. I just wanted a simple one, but man this wasnt simple. I did not pay much of it but i have spent probably rm2000 for the hantaran, hotel, the board, candles for our doorgift and my outfit. </p><p>Me and Niko went ring hunting, had countless of discussion of what to buy for the hantaran, what colour would we wear and im glad i captured all those moments. The process of getting it done was thrilling and i loved ever seconds of it, i honestly can imagine having this my whole life. He made me so happy in every dating we had. </p><p>On that particular of OUR DAY, i was calm and excited too. I was tired a night before and went straight to sleep at 3am cos i was postcall and after picking up nadia at bus station in midnight, i shut down straight away. But you, haih, the peace of my heart, you sent me such sweet messages a night before we got engaged. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEfg_6LGjFZs49AQ4lRNcJP8t01eSwe6-CbN0xLcCThOzo-v_gGNUKT-Jp4WHyhE_BKD2--HKCPQy3lg3GEBtTz0FR5SOfcsnRPQQKv3qOANnwnQC6meiE3t1d5RlNSytVaNoRTLjodb_nIGPXRT1AI9SiZtG8w1k0k_1aQgx6-f9CRb5vGczqJnjp40k/s2556/IMG_9766.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2556" data-original-width="1179" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEfg_6LGjFZs49AQ4lRNcJP8t01eSwe6-CbN0xLcCThOzo-v_gGNUKT-Jp4WHyhE_BKD2--HKCPQy3lg3GEBtTz0FR5SOfcsnRPQQKv3qOANnwnQC6meiE3t1d5RlNSytVaNoRTLjodb_nIGPXRT1AI9SiZtG8w1k0k_1aQgx6-f9CRb5vGczqJnjp40k/s320/IMG_9766.png" width="148" /></a></div>The day, Our day was perfect. Thank you for making my dream came to life, sayang. 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg14N0IxWx4Tedx_bTHKJOTASK_XNbNGweTIE5LJb0za5CBEI9Wzpji8OObk0pGstMSbQav92UsyZHJhedOQxAYN7yzm25MvKtOx6pUAU1sDBTA4zw2OschNhI9WD8eL4K2BixuTFzxmKAGhrc4u8o64cHk0P4IsV34ShyeYtqC20kshU3pNmQZB7ETIEg/s6240/IMG_7076.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4160" data-original-width="6240" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg14N0IxWx4Tedx_bTHKJOTASK_XNbNGweTIE5LJb0za5CBEI9Wzpji8OObk0pGstMSbQav92UsyZHJhedOQxAYN7yzm25MvKtOx6pUAU1sDBTA4zw2OschNhI9WD8eL4K2BixuTFzxmKAGhrc4u8o64cHk0P4IsV34ShyeYtqC20kshU3pNmQZB7ETIEg/s320/IMG_7076.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p>There were thousands of pictures in my keeps. You have been there since i was 18 years old, a teenager eager to lived her life and in between having alot of breakdowns that life threw at her. But you were there throughout all of my ups and picked me up when i was at my lowest. You were there every steps of the way. Now i am a woman that you have shaped me into, it's finally our chance to have the family that we talked about since we were at young age. I love you sayang. Let's slowly indulged in this nervewrecking prcoess of getting married, alright. I promise i will always be here by your side, just how you were there throughout these 9 years of our relationships :)<br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><p></p>NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-24574285892668329692023-07-22T21:52:00.002-07:002023-07-22T21:52:42.055-07:00Major life update - family meeting turned out to be......<p> 11.3.2023</p><p style="text-align: justify;">We just got back from Dr Saddiq's wedding. I knew our family dinner was tonight. We did not plan to have the ceremony of sarung cincin during the dinner. </p><p style="text-align: justify;">It was raining that night, and it was the first time our family gather together. Picturing them in a table together- crazy. I cant imagine this day has finally come. All the rendezvous we did while we were teenagers ended up us discussing and planning in the joining of two families. I felt nervous, happy, grateful, disbelief, overwhelmed!</p><p style="text-align: justify;">I still remember that night was raining cold and my hands were shaking time mak dia nak sarungkan cincin. Like-this finally it!!! im off the marketttt hahahaha. Bro it was awkward too cos at the back of my mind was afraid that she wouldnt liked me but i quickly brushed it off. I have the sense that our family was not in a good terms or maybe it was the awkwarrdness, but im glad, they could accept niko. The man i have loved a decade of my life. </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRi0AwesOFAwhtvIo5X1nYPnEOgakWoUHPpxw8MC58pugrxIVv_-JhEp-SaLGaegd2FPCqzmK7paONZeSyEXRc7Mv8-_GjnKxBv9d2Ss386NpCD1-4_cAzb_nTH__1je75OwhfMAnpXQyTfjfjl6y0mRO2Cs9K-0ApAW0aBHEpb-FD1551lOwNlpsX9gw/s3520/IMG_5057.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3520" data-original-width="1980" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRi0AwesOFAwhtvIo5X1nYPnEOgakWoUHPpxw8MC58pugrxIVv_-JhEp-SaLGaegd2FPCqzmK7paONZeSyEXRc7Mv8-_GjnKxBv9d2Ss386NpCD1-4_cAzb_nTH__1je75OwhfMAnpXQyTfjfjl6y0mRO2Cs9K-0ApAW0aBHEpb-FD1551lOwNlpsX9gw/s320/IMG_5057.jpeg" width="180" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqtRXxUgVYDZ9gn0ZKw5nqxqhaHwkUDVbs1sJXNNKyq4EVUevk4tomoTOiU7nhWCQNiY4FvXBzTyY6wYQBl7U8Cq06pyl_O61DcpT4obUJ4tXOhVX_8NuWwA8MQ2c-xi37_GbZT-5w9sm1975WHazEncsd8fDXhIMV4vzy6F48zbGDBiO66cnkCl0MECo/s3520/IMG_5076.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3520" data-original-width="1980" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqtRXxUgVYDZ9gn0ZKw5nqxqhaHwkUDVbs1sJXNNKyq4EVUevk4tomoTOiU7nhWCQNiY4FvXBzTyY6wYQBl7U8Cq06pyl_O61DcpT4obUJ4tXOhVX_8NuWwA8MQ2c-xi37_GbZT-5w9sm1975WHazEncsd8fDXhIMV4vzy6F48zbGDBiO66cnkCl0MECo/s320/IMG_5076.jpeg" width="180" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6nixRd_U5iDZOwq1rAkONQgN_zo94bWcHsfSp0SN66WlgHAOmDAh06q25I-TQh5vbWU2YFbP7KIsGzQxTlx9Yutdb2o7RjYIcLtsDsUvyX9iEBoKI1QvumBJ1GYeHc7gIasobVE4BDnoMlmOQXLLmqMbAhn04KgK1Rh_iFyDXp4FBsc15JRNKhNvinoA/s4032/IMG_5097.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6nixRd_U5iDZOwq1rAkONQgN_zo94bWcHsfSp0SN66WlgHAOmDAh06q25I-TQh5vbWU2YFbP7KIsGzQxTlx9Yutdb2o7RjYIcLtsDsUvyX9iEBoKI1QvumBJ1GYeHc7gIasobVE4BDnoMlmOQXLLmqMbAhn04KgK1Rh_iFyDXp4FBsc15JRNKhNvinoA/s320/IMG_5097.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Oh Allah swt, please sustained this happiness in my life. These are all i have ever dreamed of. Thank you for making it this year. Thank you for allowing us to be together. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Now, the fun part! Planning the engagement!</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><br /><br /></div><br /><br /><p></p>NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-77762413995127457232022-06-21T07:16:00.000-07:002022-06-21T07:16:02.658-07:00Life update - graduated with 3.78 CGPA in Med school, Aydeen came to my life, waiting for Housemanship. <p> Hey,</p><p>I have officially graduated from Manipal University holding a Bachelor in Surgery and Bachelor in Medicine (MBBS) Degree!!!! Not sure if i wanna call my self a capital D and small r yet. But next month in July is where my life will turned 360 degrees. I will start tagging and life as a proper Dr soon and now im trying to do some revision myself. </p><p>Aydeen is sooo cute. He is 8 months now. He is our bundle of joy and we loveeeee him so so much.</p><p>I had such a wonderful 6 months pre-houseman vacation days. I appreciate my own days and nights, romanticize my days, spending my days with the love of my life - Nikman Syafiq, friends and family (still had some conflicts umm). </p><p>So far life has been good eventhough i am broke hehe. </p>NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-1717591698044673502022-06-21T07:10:00.002-07:002022-06-21T07:10:11.697-07:00A letter to myself.<p> Dear myself, </p><p>I am writing to you to remind you that things will get tough in a month. That is when you will start your tagging in a hospital i havent known yet, in a department i dont know yet but YOU know. </p><p>I love you. You have gone through a lot to come to this stage of your life. Admit it or not, deep down in your heart you are proud to have graduate as a Dr even when it takes half of your life to learn. You have sailed through 5 years of medical school alone, been a foetus and being so independent in India ALONE, toughest time in Muar and 2 years of being lost in Melaka but you, YOU scored the highest in the whole 155 people in your batch. TOP 5 student is something. If they can do it, you can do it too. </p><p>Hold on. Hold on a bit longer. Allah swt puts you in this situation because HE KNOWS. HE KNOWS YOU CAN GO THROUGH THIS TOUGH TIME BECAUSE YOU ARE A TOUGH COOKIE. Tawakal to Allah swt. </p><p>I promise you, things will get better in 2 years. You will be happy, you will have your own family, and you will be one of the specialist that you awed once back then. </p><p>Take a deep breath, and redah jeeerr. Dont overthink okay? I love you. You are loved. </p><p>From, Farina from the past. </p>NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-26700984875652547202021-04-03T06:52:00.001-07:002021-04-03T06:52:05.227-07:00Lost puppy<p>So many things to do, so little time...</p><p>Ramadhan is approaching in 10 days and im not ready.</p><p>Not ready spiritually and mentally. Im at lost to balance my studies and my mental health. </p><p>Now, back to books. (Just started :( )</p>NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-66960892556616337242021-01-30T07:29:00.002-08:002021-01-30T07:29:37.032-08:00It's 2021 bitches. <p> Hello, It's 31st January today.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><span> </span> And it had been the longest month ever. I just finished my medicine posting for 3 freaking months (supposed only 8 weeks) from November 2020-Jan 2021. Everyday was a struggle, anxiety, feeling incompetent and im doubting my career everyday. We didnt got the chance to even go to the hospital and honestly i think that's the reason why i struggle with my medicine posting. I can't remember what was taught and i only had to imagine, plus with the pressure put behind us, esp by Prof M and Dr K, it's not helping. Don't know la dr batch keluaran covid ni bodoh semuanya.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><span> 25th january i planned to have a picnic birthday with niko but we're still in MCO period shits. Can't even cross border coz currently im in Melaka and he's in Cheras. Nevertheless, i hoped i did make him happy that day. I bought him a customized leather cardholder. It came 2 days early! and alllll of his favourite food in a day! Dominos pizza, chicken, durian lava cake, 2 pints of inside scoop icecream, 500ml of macadamia coffee. I really love seeing him happy and i hope i can spoil him for the rest of my life. His smile and laugh are the reasons that i make it everyday. </span></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><span><br /></span></p><p><span></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-6nBmFMNVQJQ/YBV5eU2cAmI/AAAAAAABKP4/y7eezk2rBFgHuWsncCWQx7hItENKiThvACLcBGAsYHQ/s1080/6027a355-7afd-45af-bd5b-d90f0f90a24d.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="608" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-6nBmFMNVQJQ/YBV5eU2cAmI/AAAAAAABKP4/y7eezk2rBFgHuWsncCWQx7hItENKiThvACLcBGAsYHQ/s320/6027a355-7afd-45af-bd5b-d90f0f90a24d.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-hfaxAKcDcRY/YBV5eQA-BQI/AAAAAAABKP0/dNs_INwHJzM0MIV5JOLpdQxbxaSDwdOOACLcBGAsYHQ/s1080/03007099-dd24-448a-b45f-725b24543de5.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="608" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-hfaxAKcDcRY/YBV5eQA-BQI/AAAAAAABKP0/dNs_INwHJzM0MIV5JOLpdQxbxaSDwdOOACLcBGAsYHQ/s320/03007099-dd24-448a-b45f-725b24543de5.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-ii17ARRunds/YBV5gTpkwjI/AAAAAAABKQI/k6GybXcSLHoc15AwMa9I0LRKxxqcpAQegCLcBGAsYHQ/s1080/be08f95a-a306-4ea2-882d-da52fa1be95e.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="608" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-ii17ARRunds/YBV5gTpkwjI/AAAAAAABKQI/k6GybXcSLHoc15AwMa9I0LRKxxqcpAQegCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/be08f95a-a306-4ea2-882d-da52fa1be95e.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-GRtGg2DPJuU/YBV5g6r4mxI/AAAAAAABKQM/lBnRNFw_JqENRuuipIuf1Pb9ESGcUY0WQCLcBGAsYHQ/s1080/f9dff5ad-ba0b-402b-8bbc-83cba91c0d33.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="810" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-GRtGg2DPJuU/YBV5g6r4mxI/AAAAAAABKQM/lBnRNFw_JqENRuuipIuf1Pb9ESGcUY0WQCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/f9dff5ad-ba0b-402b-8bbc-83cba91c0d33.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-B1EeOJAWxkQ/YBV5e__cU5I/AAAAAAABKP8/ALPlC48ZgSIhCRwl69Aiqi8sOuD87ONzQCLcBGAsYHQ/s2048/IMG_6730.HEIC" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-B1EeOJAWxkQ/YBV5e__cU5I/AAAAAAABKP8/ALPlC48ZgSIhCRwl69Aiqi8sOuD87ONzQCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/IMG_6730.HEIC" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-8dJVpry_5Yc/YBV5hw2wW-I/AAAAAAABKQY/cQJLwZaUmYEKjuwCltDI_FsuGN-Ff1p5ACLcBGAsYHQ/s2048/IMG_6866.PNG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1152" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-8dJVpry_5Yc/YBV5hw2wW-I/AAAAAAABKQY/cQJLwZaUmYEKjuwCltDI_FsuGN-Ff1p5ACLcBGAsYHQ/s320/IMG_6866.PNG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-7uU7_ulD_i0/YBV5fsXzHQI/AAAAAAABKQA/BerN5_jIbLARfqLH6FgScLqWycpGaLgeQCLcBGAsYHQ/s2048/IMG_6867.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-7uU7_ulD_i0/YBV5fsXzHQI/AAAAAAABKQA/BerN5_jIbLARfqLH6FgScLqWycpGaLgeQCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/IMG_6867.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Fp6pEqZOdeo/YBV5gFRh41I/AAAAAAABKQE/jUnOtAE-Xd8hsRub1is-pSrhgbKZ8BmnQCLcBGAsYHQ/s2048/IMG_6868.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Fp6pEqZOdeo/YBV5gFRh41I/AAAAAAABKQE/jUnOtAE-Xd8hsRub1is-pSrhgbKZ8BmnQCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/IMG_6868.JPG" /></a></div><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span><br /></span></p>Oh and did i mention he bought himself a new iPHONE?! I'm sooooo happy for him!!! He got the latest iPhone 12, 128gb. Thank god coz hid iphone6plus was the worse. hahaha<p></p><p><span><br /></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-z92bAKmgg8Y/YBV5hQkK9VI/AAAAAAABKQQ/5O4yGOUduk4NgP0L4az0tywslB6jOMM2wCLcBGAsYHQ/s1920/lp_image%2B2%2B2.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1920" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-z92bAKmgg8Y/YBV5hQkK9VI/AAAAAAABKQQ/5O4yGOUduk4NgP0L4az0tywslB6jOMM2wCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/lp_image%2B2%2B2.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-R-uBzacE8qk/YBV5hzY8dFI/AAAAAAABKQU/gd7YjKUucBEBc3o-jWczWwPlIVYS_LgbgCLcBGAsYHQ/s1920/lp_image%2B2.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1920" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-R-uBzacE8qk/YBV5hzY8dFI/AAAAAAABKQU/gd7YjKUucBEBc3o-jWczWwPlIVYS_LgbgCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/lp_image%2B2.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-08SwBUn43gI/YBV5iFoss3I/AAAAAAABKQc/vWHDKw8rSJgRjJfUXzidfUTJMiDtbNn4gCLcBGAsYHQ/s1920/lp_image%2B3%2B2.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1920" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-08SwBUn43gI/YBV5iFoss3I/AAAAAAABKQc/vWHDKw8rSJgRjJfUXzidfUTJMiDtbNn4gCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/lp_image%2B3%2B2.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-CshYu-TyJlU/YBV5ivKtk8I/AAAAAAABKQg/QJ1PplQ1ugQMkgZgI1WviK9yRM8I-WO1wCLcBGAsYHQ/s1920/lp_image%2B3.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1920" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-CshYu-TyJlU/YBV5ivKtk8I/AAAAAAABKQg/QJ1PplQ1ugQMkgZgI1WviK9yRM8I-WO1wCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/lp_image%2B3.JPG" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-_rlSuLAB2UU/YBV5jMWG8-I/AAAAAAABKQk/VFWp6qCmtwocxoGaX79N1td-Mg26XWJwwCLcBGAsYHQ/s1920/lp_image%2B4.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1920" data-original-width="1080" height="320" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-_rlSuLAB2UU/YBV5jMWG8-I/AAAAAAABKQk/VFWp6qCmtwocxoGaX79N1td-Mg26XWJwwCLcBGAsYHQ/s320/lp_image%2B4.JPG" /></a></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"> We're 7 years old this year! and i can't wait to spend my whole life with him... couldnt really imagine seeing him everyday though... must be really nice coz i get to cook and feed him a lot!!! He deserve all the best thing in this world, honestly. He's the best boyfriend in the whole world. Ceh i speak like mcm baru couple hahah no but really all i wanted at the end of the day is speaking to him on the phone. There's not even a single day where he'll sleep without me, he's so clingy and manja. Miss you a lot sayang. 💘 </div><p></p><p style="text-align: justify;">2021 really feels like 2020 part two lol. I just want to graduate and get the hell out of manipal. Can't really decide whether i wanna continue being a doctor though. I just wanna have a happy life and do what i enjoy doing for the rest of my life coz life so short to waking up and be anxious everyday 😭😭😭</p><p style="text-align: justify;">That's it for my life update, let's see when will i write further haha</p><p style="text-align: justify;">Till then, xoxo.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p>NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-81439496729473282292020-06-23T10:33:00.001-07:002020-06-23T10:33:32.618-07:00Best date, best days spent with you<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-17478227884129035692020-06-23T10:26:00.000-07:002020-06-23T10:26:44.602-07:00SO DONE WITH TWENTY TWENTY <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Now we're into 2020, a year that everyone was looked forward to get into. Who would have thought, that it turned into a</div>
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PANDEMIC YEAR.</div>
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involving every single countries in the world, Covid-19 invaded like nobody business. And it's still here but cases are currently decreasing in trend. Because of it, my whole is on hold. Everything is postponed.</div>
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Restriction movement order (RMO)/ PKP was ordered by the government, university closed down and I've been spending 4 months at home. Including post P2S1 holiday and electives in Hospital Shah Alam, safe to say i've been spending almost a year now, (from Jan 2020 - June 2020) and will be continue until semester restart, in DECEMBER 2020. My whole life sucks. Dreams of graduating in 2021 and getting married after were ruined. Now i don't know what to expect anymore.</div>
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Well, as usual, i'm not comfortable staying at home for a long period of time. They quarrel and i have no one to talk to. Father was caught cheated with someone and fgs i don't even wanna know. Mom was treated like a slave and i can't do anything to change that. Mom had to in order to win father's heart back. And is willingly to be treated like a slave. </div>
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Akak is happily married for almost a year now. No babies yet. Coming soon hopefully. </div>
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Niko is so far away. Dont't get me started with how devastated i was. We were supposed to spend our last 2 months together in Melaka. Bcos of virus, UTEM was closed until god knows when and now he's back in Perak. Due to prohibition of border crossing, we haven't met for 3 months. It fucking sucks.</div>
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I just met him last Saturday. We spent the whole weekend together. It was the best. thing. ever happened in 2020. I love him so much. </div>
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He's graduating soon, in July. I pray only the best coming in his way. He is my gem, he is my rock. He is my heart. I am his. </div>
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Farid left Icha before 2020, on New year's eve. She's still recovering, still doesn't look good. Breakup hurts, and i know.</div>
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Let's just wait for my future self to update what is happening soon. </div>
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Bye xx</div>
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-22091769046207097672019-10-18T19:12:00.001-07:002019-10-18T19:12:05.392-07:00Life moved on so fast<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's one of those days that im not feeling myself. I hate say that im lonely and socially awkward. I think everyone thinks that im a loser and im not fun to be friends with. No one seems to care at this stage of life. No one asks me how's life and even if im telling them my feelings, boy did they seem to care? They cut out my story halfway and say everything is just fine and it's me overthinking some stuff. Am i not allowed to feel things? Am i not allowed to feel and everytime i have these feelings, they are all just me overthinking? Are my feelings not important? Even if it's not important to you please dont tell me that it's not important for me. It's you who sucks and you made me feel bad about myself. People nowdays are asking not to really hear but they ask to dig you inside and let the hole open made you feel more sick and terrible about yourself. Fuck you.</div>
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On that very day, i woke up with butterflies not because of anything but i am extremely nervous of how my makeup on sis will turn out to. Yes you read that right. I. did. my sis. face. on. her. engagement. day. The freaking face that is the centre and main attention to all 200 people in that hall. What if it's too dark? What if the eyeshadow doesnt stay throughout? AND THE COLOURS AND BLENDING uh that's the hardest. Ive never painted on anyone else and even on my face sometimes lashes dont turned out nice, eyebrows are not on fleek but i just dont have the heart to say no. Well, i did rejected her the first time she asked but come to think of it, this is the first time that my sis ever ask me for help. And ofcourse i wanna do something good on her big day. So, face it is. </div>
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Directly went to the event space at Seksyen 24, unload every hantaran and put em on the dulang brought by kak uji from batu pahat (borrowing is da bomb-saveyourpockets), calling ze bridesmaids asking where they were and im not surprised that at 8++, fatieha and nana was still asleep bhahaha i dont mind coz i know that fatieha had a long night having to submit her client's case or somethang. Then, naik turun nak letak her dress and mine on the room upstairs. Had to write this down that im only wearing mom's cardigan with my leggings running around sweating, uh.</div>
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I FELT SO HAPPY I WANNA CRY COZ AKAK LOOK AMAZING LA SIAA BUT THERE'S JUST NOT ENOUGH TIME COZ I DID NOTHING YET ON MY FACE (which took me <b>atleast 30 mins</b> to makeup myself) AND MOM STARTED CALLING US TO COME DOWN, EVENT HAS STARTED, GUESTS ARE HERE, COME DOWN COME DOWN!!</div>
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I chanted shit shit shit for God knows how many times coz i only applied foundation and mascara with blush and eyebrows in TEN MINUTES I TELL YOU. Damn, that was the fastest ever and i even considered to not pakai foundation at that time coz tak sempat and akak still suruh pakai eyeshadow a little but no sis my tangan is shaking i cannot blend and think straight while phones are all ringing asking us to come down now 😭</div>
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Went down with the bridesmaid and hold the hantaran on the aisle with the bridesmaid (they left me the heaviest hantaran-fruits- tak guna betul) and haziq who pegang tepak sirih. Haziq terwalked fast and followed rombongan lelaki and had to reverse bhahaha so after putting down all the hantaran to the stage, I walked up back for akak to walked her in later. i pulak yang nervous lmao.<br />
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After the discussion from both sides, akak walked in up to the pelamin and her mother in law gave her fresh flowers and i went back to the tables with friends wee.</div>
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Invited him in along with his friend, bal to the last table behind and little did i know that my ayah is there talking to another uncle and we all walked fast away from that table and sat with eika and all 😂"<i>Habislah kena interview</i>"- my thoughts. He sat there and ate the food and desserts. His favorite was the daging masak kicap, i wanted to tapao it for them but later takut basi coz he's going to the airport, sending his kakak away to Mesir. Seeing him getting along with my bestfriends, cracking jokes and sharing stories makes me feel so so happy and i havent felt it in a long time. I am so grateful to be able to witness this and seeing the acceptance from my bestfriends side. Those moments are still vividly playing in my mind while im writing this. Ahh i wish i could turn back time and feel the same thing twice. I love my bestfriends and i love him so much too. Imagine how big my heart is now lmao. </div>
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-90398339672051539782018-11-06T00:23:00.000-08:002018-11-06T00:23:01.692-08:00draft- hari sukan/UiTM/first puasa kat umah.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Aku bukanlah anak pengetua, aku bukan juga anak Tan Sri/Dato'/Datin/Tuan/Puan. Tapi bila bagi alasan yang taklah berapa nak kukuh untuk pulang bermalam, eh macam senang je dia bagi balik. Mungkin tertarik dengan muka aku yang ada iras iras bau bau bacang dengan Lisa Surihani ni, macam ringan je tangan dia nak tandatangan kad dan borang pulang bermalam. Hati Makcik Zaiton (bukan nama sebenar) yang kental dan tough juga terlebih mesra alam, setelah di bomoh sepam dua akhirnya lembut juga. Dalam bulan ni ada lah dalam sekali dua aku balik sebelum masanya. Jangan.. jangan dengki dan jealous dengan aku, haish bila dah kamceng dengan orang orang kuat ni senang lah sikit urusan persendirian.<br />
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Kali <i>pertama</i> aku pulang, aku terlepas <b>Hari Sukan SABDA kali ke-3</b>. Rugi? Terkilan? Er.. er.. 15% je rasanya. Bukan sengaja, tapi bila ada empat lima orang minta balik ala konon kononnya ada urusan keluarga, hormon tahap cemburu aku membuak buak. Aku terkilan dan rasa rugi ketinggalan Hari Sukan bukan sebab aku terlibat acara apa apa. Ehem, aku terlibat acara 3000m tapi bila dah menang ni susah sikit lah. Aku terkilan sebab aku <i><span style="color: #e69138;">tak dapat tengok khemah rumah aku setelah berperah berbotol peluh buat persiapan.</span> </i>Untuk perhatian, <i><span style="color: #b45f06;">terlepas tengok karya seni air tangan aku dalam khemah</span>. </i>Rugi! Rugi! Patutlah orang puji, air tangan aku tu!</div>
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-28937745948209581762017-11-05T06:59:00.001-08:002017-11-05T06:59:22.033-08:00Second (same) year<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Im back here in emptiness for 2 weeks and my heart, and myself is still screaming in silence.<br />
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I cannot put my heart to pour, i can't write...I feel so empty yet so much</div>
NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-11644793776560336442017-09-14T09:18:00.002-07:002017-09-14T09:18:55.118-07:00What is love, anyways?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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But isn't that how it is to be in love? You don't get to choose who will knock deep inside you heart. You cannot set a line of not getting attached coz how do you know to what extend it will be? You don't have the power to stop yourself from putting hopes up high and making dreams together coz that is why you guys are together as we see our future in them. You cannot not get attached cause what is the purpose of having someone if you're not gonna depend on him? Everyone is someone's weakness. </div>
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I am so torn in between do not give your heart fully and love fully cause you might not known maybe he is the one. As far as i learned from the heart ache he gave me, i shouldnt get too attached but now we're back together, i just can't stop myself. How can you do that to someone you really really love?</div>
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Did not ask how am i doing today, my feelings, my day</div>
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Did not get excited to plan anything for our date<br />
Did not get excited for seeing me after half a year being away<br />
Did not even have a heart to pujuk me back, but yell at me instead.<br />
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I AM FUCKING TIRED of having to face someone that does not even treat me as he is in love meanwhile im like a fool missing and admiring how good we were. How can i NOT sad and make scene cause honestly i am so terasa. If i were to being left like this, i'd be very tawar hati and on that time i will never get back to him ever again. </div>
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-59737251929660520512017-08-15T01:20:00.000-07:002017-08-15T01:20:42.822-07:004 years of friendship is saved, today<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I have this conflict with jal who is the person i was very very closed to until he replaced me with someone that i dont um.. prefer? (hate) At first i gave them space and i chill my ass down but i have been silence for 4 months and he still did not realise anything especially i made our distance CRYSTAL CLEAR. But man, boys can be so dumb. The more i think, the more my heart aches knowing that i was at her place before!!! for god sake i. am. not. jealous. I just felt replaced and it's different...............<br />
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After i finished phonecall with my boyfriend, i just can't sleep. And it makes me think so hard that i know i couldnt bear it anymore. So i called amzar unintentionally cs i tengok he was active in instagram last night. Then we talked, i honestly cried but i cover la cause malu but i just felt extremely sad considering we ignored each other for months and he chose perempuan tu over me!!!!<br />
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Ikhmal was there too so they both comforted and dyingly asked me to confront and talk to jal myself and put my pride down for the sake of saving my heart from ached and our friendship. Ikhmal said he would be so dissapointed if he knows the next morning that i didnt call jal lol but they're so nice to me.<br />
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They said "honestly, far, you cannot be alone. It's difficult and you have to face them for more than 5 years later on and just so you know we're here. Just called and cakap "hey i need some of your words or just ask to lepak together, we're definitely okay with that"<br />
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And so i did..... I braved myself (aka forced) to called then it says he was on another call. I WAS PISSED I KNOW HES ON CALL WITH THAT freaking bitch. So i sad.....and amzar went to jal's room to make sure he didnt. Turns out it was hemen calling to ask jal to play dota lol wtv then i tried second time.<br />
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penat tulis. im sleepy so i guess i continue this someother day lol goodnight<br />
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-78001363057555961582017-08-13T00:59:00.001-07:002017-08-13T01:03:33.494-07:00First year of medicine<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Its Sunday, August 13th now. Im on the bed, covering half of my leg with white scented duvet, laying back on the cushion with my phone charging playing music by my side. Curtains are tied, with the smell of my katy perry perfume on it. Room is cold, aircond with fan altogether making comforting sound. </div>
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Forth block of the first year has finished yesterday. Im just gonna rest for today and start studying again tomorrow for my university examination. I wish i could cs im still the malas procrastinator of all time lol. I think i should start early cause i dont wanna feel gelabah and in race with the time with another sleepless night. Damn it was hard. Forth block was the hardest i could say, but the rest are all the same too. I had never imagined sleeping at 4-5am staying up and forcing myself to drink 2 sachets of coffee in a cup for the sake of keeping me awake. At one point, my head and hands are all shaky cause maybe the caffeine had lost its effect on me. I feel sorry for my body and mind though. Been awaken the whole night, memorising everything, man baby steps to be a doctor was difficult gila nak mampus. At it was just my first year!!! Im just like, what, the mitosis stage of developing a baby...??</div>
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The rest of my first year here was, the lonely one. It was sorrowful, gloomy, disconsolated and... alone. Until at one time i am so comfortable being alone. And it still is. It makes me just love being by myself and thinking that im okay without anyone, i thought it was independent, little did i know i am just alone. I might up for a lengthy post on what are the things that are troubling my heart, later. But for now, all is good.</div>
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In this year too, i had my downfall breakups. What makes it worse is, no one was there to comfort me. No one and no one especiallly when Alysha is not here, it makes everything fall bad. It still hurts me whenever i teringat about my breakups days, it is so hurtful i still feel it up until now. Man, it was hard. Never. Never ever do that to anyone else people, its affecting them throughout their life. </div>
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I get back from school for lunch, not having my lunch and i just cuddle in bed, and <i>cry</i>.</div>
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I get back from school at 5pm, not doing anything and <i>cry </i>till asleep before i woke up again and study.</div>
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I studied with my heart<i> crying</i><br />
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I slept the whole night, <i>crying</i>, cowering and hitting my chest so hard but it still doesnt hurt cause it breaks on the inside and it is more painful inside that the bruises outside. I crumpled my comforter so bad to control the pain. It hurts so so so so much i don't know if any words ever suit to explain it.</div>
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Why people cry on breakups? Cause theyall blaming themselves for not be good enough when they thought they had done the best for the one they love. They cry because it was painful when someone you love cut you totally out of his life when all that you had ever depend was on him. When all things you did everday for when the years had passed by, you tell them everything and on one morning the next day you wake up and opened your eyes, it was all gone. All gone. You dont have anyone to do that again, dont have anyone to pour your heart out, no reason to look up to your handphone cause all that's left was the memories and photos of you guys happily smiling but now my heart aches so much. To make it worse, i build myself up again all. by. my. self. all by myself. </div>
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And if one day if he asked to get back, it will never be the same. You restrict opening to them again and you could feel was scared. You scared to give them again cause they'll crashed them like it is nothing when they get it again. Never ever let anyone hold you like he's the only one making you strong. No. You are strong because of you. No matter how incomplete you might feel, you have to make yourself whole again for the reason is yourself, not anyone else. People are just passing by your life to add spices and excitement but at the end of the day, when you look back, all you have now in your heart and mind is your own self. You build yourself up because of you.</div>
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"<i>You never know how strong you are until it is the only option</i>". True-est. </div>
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<i>My first year was good. It was okay</i>.</div>
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Tears are my bestfriend now and i hope it'll be less/gone next.</div>
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And i hope it gets better on the second year though. Cause im not okay for another lonely phase when im 22 next year. </div>
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-40639599603013689072017-08-12T12:39:00.000-07:002017-08-12T12:44:32.823-07:00A fresh start! OH IT'S AUGUST 2017!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Oh ya Allah i don't even know where to start. Firstly, i am SO SO excited for not losing this blog. Oh no no im not gonna lose this one. It has given me so so much memories especially the high school ones eventhough my writings are mostly crap but wtv i love myself for keeping on writing for myself, not for anyone to read. Well, if they do that would be such pleasure. I really love how my taste in choosing something is very cool and simple just like the white background here, it's so clean and is not gonna be washed away by years. Oh and im thinking to keep my spinning rabbit too!! 🐰🐰🐰🐰🐇🐇 yay!! (im so cool how did i even have that stuff) Im glad im into blogging since i was belas belas years old cause you will never know you could actually heal the <i>future </i>you. You are enough yourself, sweetie.<br />
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Oh i feel like jumping around!!! anyway, i diverged to wordpress for about 6 months but then i realised how my heart wasn't there everytime i look at my site. It was exciting for sure but yknow, this one feels SO MUCH like home. 😍 💞💞💞 LOOK HOW BLOGSPOT HAS IMPROVED CAN INSERT EMOJI SOME MORE!!! OH MY GOD...??? SO COOL I TELL YOU<br />
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So basically how i ended up here was......i dont know, there was this one friend of mine asked:<br />
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yea.....i write but im not making it public cause i shy like dat.<br />
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Truth is, on my wordpress blog, i publicly put it on all my socials bio. People started to read my words, that is exactly what i want. But on the days that im not feeling myself, i want to write it too but i can't cause if i do, they wont get anything (knowledge) from me. It will be solely my deep dark side which i do not want people to feel that. Im scared if people look like im making a big deal out of it when it actually affected me deeply. Being judged. That is.<br />
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So i stop writing. Not because i want to but because i <i>choose </i>things that i wanna write, you know.. And it doesn't feel like myself anymore. It is more to faking myself happy and telling i am doing okay but i am not. I am certainly not. Especially when it comes to here, in Manipal. Gosh.<br />
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To be frank, i wanted to make another new blog site but i feel sad cause i already written a whole lengthy posts in the wordpress but i have to start from scratch here. I hate wasting time reorganizing to my preferences cause im very simple but cerewet. All the fonts, the backgrounds, titles, labels, urgh ok stop. I also dislike seeing my "posts" to be written ZERO. i wanted people to see that im already into blogging since fetus lol ok yea i am old enough in this world, true yeah..??<br />
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I was just trying my luck signing in and BAMMMM IT SIGNED IN. I love keeping one password for everything i have in my life lol you should do that too! So ive decided to keep this blog, no matter how shameful it will be if my friends read all the malay crap things i wrote. Hey, i was young ok?? 😂😂😂 I think i just have to write more so they'll be tired to scroll and keep up only to the newest post lol im smart i know hehe.<br />
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This is the start of something new! New life, new friends, new problems, new dramas, new change, new surroundings and same 'ol tears.<br />
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Well maybe im not meant to write smart stuff here hahaha cause im just always too hormonal and emotional. Having feelings is tiring!<br />
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I look forward to write more! I have few posts drafted in mind now lol i looooove writing and i miss it so much i know a part of me is here somewhere, since the past 5 years. Until next post,<br />
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-49629137169472650402015-12-14T23:40:00.000-08:002015-12-14T23:40:29.145-08:00A post before 2015 endsAssalamualaikum,<br />
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Can't believe I'm still looking up to this blog. The previous post was about 3 days to get into 2015, but now I'm writing in the last month of 2015, in December lol how fast time flies. Gonna get into my fourth semester in few weeks' time. I have the urge to write again aaaall because of Vivvy my all time fav idol. She writes even though she is very busy with fashion valet, kids, marriage and so on. I feel like keeping this blog to myself so that i am able to look back on how ridiculous i was before...<br />
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Nways, I do apply to further my studies in the UK, but still bound to India. Thank God i was bounded cs i don't think i can get the offer from UK. Medic is so so competitive!! I hate that can't they just accept me already I know I can cope with it and I'm gonna give my utmost effort nnt hehehe look how confident I am saying rn. Less than a month to get into my final war with all the revisions books books books but in the past 2 weeks all i did was lying on bed eating sleep till my head spins so much, so unproductive. But I can't help ittt I'm so lazy huhu that's why UK don't wanna offer me kot. Anyway, i'm still hoping for something though, didn't want my parents to fall into frustrations. They yall are so hoping I can get UK huwaa i don't like that cs i know what will happen next..kot...<br />
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Another two days to 1 year and 3 months with Niko hehe it was so nice seeing me writing so happily when im in the third months with him in my previous post. Lol so many things happen, ups and downs but we still bare with each other and i still love to hear his voice everynight without failing unless we got work to do or one of us fall asleep first (which im gonna get mad if he sleeps first the next day but if it's me, it is okay. Pretty selfish but idc hihi)<br />
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So yeah, see you when i see you. Gotta do my econs IRP notes now. Shoot me someone, what is holiday with assignments???? Can't the teachers understand :-( Oh they do understand, unless you're in IB, You can't get away from it, they'll chase you till all the things that you think when you wake up, in the shower, eat, jogs, watching movie is assignmentt! That guilty pleasure tho huhu bye<br />
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XoxoNurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-32665360203200849732014-12-26T20:00:00.002-08:002014-12-26T20:00:17.517-08:003 days before 2015<div style="text-align: justify;">
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it has been almost a year since the last time updated here. Before this i was so busy struggling applying scholarship and interviews tapi yang melekat cuma MARA je Alhamdulillah lah dapat jugak tajaan hm why do i feel so awkward hahaha</div>
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Anyway, so now im in Kolej Mara Seremban doing IB Medic. Nama cam gempak tapi baru sem 1 dah nangis susah. Taktau kenapa im kinda regret choosing IB bcs im not confident that i'll pass it. But if i do, im going to Manipal India. Tell me again why am i describing this as if there's someone who wants to read(?)</div>
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I was supposed to do bm assignment tp tetiba teringat-terbukak-tertulis now hahah maybe i just don't want to lose this blog. I'll update even for once a year. Say i'm sentimental but this blog is where i started my life loooooooong ago when i'm 13 until now, 18. </div>
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Don't know how to tell this but my life now is much more brighter because i know that i have a shoulder to cry on that always sabar with my annoyance! I may have my friends, and i still do. Eika Icha Farah Cijan Nadia Nabila & hazz hm that's the most that i can list sbb yang lain semua dah tak rapat aaand tak contact, jauh. What i want to say is im so so blessed to be with Niko now hahahahaha sounded so awkward doh since when did i fall for him, i don't know. Now im so head over heels to him. It has been um 3 months+ since we're together ((17/9/2014)) Along that time, im kind of pissed of bcs where were him years agooooooooo!! hahaha um yes i love him tell me im angau but whatever, i like his personalitites so much. </div>
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Ops this blog are not private so i'll stop here. Just to tell you ((this blog)) that i'm doing fine--minus IB-- if im not updating this for a year so maybe my time has come. If anybody reading this, wish me luck for my second sem that will start next Sunday ((GOD HELP ME HUHU)) </div>
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-54869801797528384792014-01-21T22:50:00.001-08:002014-01-21T22:50:29.800-08:00#3 Wordless Wednesday - Amin.<div style="text-align: center;">
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<i>Jadikanlah kami salah seorang daripada tetamu-Mu, Ya Allah.</i></div>
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<i>Betapa ingin ku jejakkan kaki di Tanah Haram sebelum ajalku,</i></div>
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<i>Jika bukan aku,</i></div>
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<i>kau serulah ibubapaku,</i></div>
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<i>Ampunilah dosa mereka,</i></div>
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<i>Kau haramkanlah api neraka untuk mereka,</i></div>
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<i>Sayangi mereka bagaimana mereka menyayangiku sewaktu aku masih kecil.</i></div>
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Sayu.</div>
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Semuanya bermula tanpa kita sedar,</div>
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Bahagia seluruh alam semesta,</div>
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Sunatullah- hukum alam tangisan memenuhi wad,</div>
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Tangan berganti tangan,</div>
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Daripada orang yang menyambut kepada yang meneran,</div>
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Disitu kita sedar tatkala,</div>
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Kalimah suci dilaungkan,</div>
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Suara garau serak basah bergema</div>
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Pada kendongan yang kita tidak kenal mulanya.</div>
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Sayu.</div>
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Tak kira bangsa keturunan agama,</div>
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Binatang haiwan dan manusia,</div>
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Kita dia tatang bagai minyak yang penuh,</div>
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Kita dia berjaga siang dan malam,</div>
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Andai ada gigitan nyamuk,</div>
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Andai ada penyakit menyerang,</div>
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Tidak kira bulan atau matahari,</div>
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Setia di sisi</div>
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Tidak pernah lari.</div>
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Sayu.</div>
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Keringat dikerah sedaya upaya,</div>
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Jadikan kita orang berguna,</div>
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Wang dilabur tak berkira,</div>
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Semahal mana semampu bisa,</div>
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Dia menanggung tak meminta,</div>
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Mengeluh sekali sekala,</div>
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Selalu bersama perit dan getir,</div>
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Kita tidak tahu dan tidak mengerti.</div>
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Apa yang kita tahu,</div>
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Hanyalah meminta hajat dipenuhi,</div>
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Lalai leka dan liar</div>
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Kita lupa.</div>
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Manusia pelupa.</div>
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Manusia alpa.</div>
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Lupa.</div>
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Alpa.</div>
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Minta ampun minta maaf ma, ayah.<br />
Andai adik tahu peritnya besar kan adik<br />
Takkan adik tinggikan suara tadi.<br />
Hanya sebab sekuman perkara.<br />
Hampas semuanya.</div>
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-87798488784140080272014-01-15T08:28:00.002-08:002014-01-15T08:28:41.104-08:00#2 Wordless Wednesday - Blood is thicker than waterAssalamualaikum,<br />
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-54882679302262098612014-01-11T09:26:00.000-08:002014-01-11T09:40:25.435-08:00Kak Tab : Life in the fab laneAssalamualaikum,<br />
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Kejap kay stop semua. Play dulu lagu bawah ni kasi feel lebih sikit.<br />
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Ehem kepada Norsyafiqah binti Saleh,<br />
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<i>whaddeheck? HAHAHAHA</i><br />
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Dengar lagu tu kiranya dah summaries apa yang aku nak cakap. Apa apa pun aku nak cakap juga, selama 5 tahun kita satu dorm, banyaak benda kita lalui sama sama. Mula masa form one aku tak suka kau. Kau tak suka aku. Masuk form 5 baru aku rasa yang aku lebih rapat and luangkan banyak masa dengan kau lebih daripada kawan kawan yang lain. Yelah, tahun SPM kan. Lepak dorm dengan bilik study je ah.<br />
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Ingat tak janji kita, masa F5 tak boleh cakap pasal boys. Tak payah couple. Kahkahkah nampak remeh and lawak tapi kita betul betul tepati. Bila antara kita start cakap then nanti ada yang "woiwoi kata dah janji?!" Tanpa kita sedar, banyak dah benda yang kita share. Banyak benda yang kita luahkan. Pasal family, pasal kawan, pasal cousin sepupu sepapat, pasal kampung, pasal siblings, problems etc. Aku bukan apa, dalam banyak banyak kawan aku rasa aku banyak bercerita dengan kau. Banyak yang aku luahkan kalau tengah marah bengang rasa nak kutuk maki ke apa esp time tengah sedih. As yu know, aku bukannya jenis yang cakap kat orang yg aku tgh sedih tak tentu pasal. But with you, kau yang selalu tegur bila aku balik dorm muka toya, </div>
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<i>"Kau okay tak, Farina?"</i></div>
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And aku macam.........</div>
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<i>"Tadi kannnnnnnn.............."</i></div>
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Di sini guwe nak memohon sepuluh jari kaki sepuluh jari tangan dari<i> </i>meminta maaf sangat sangat sebab aku banyak sakitkan hati kau. Banyak makan makanan kau. Banyak pakai pemadam kau. Banyak lepak atas katil kau. Banyak menyusahkan kau dengar memacam hal dunia marikh aku. Banyak lah! Banyak! Banyak!</div>
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Apa Apapun, tu bukan tujuan asal aku tulis post ni kihkihkih. Takmo sesedih. Takmo terharu lagi. Pergi stop kat lagu barney tu kejap. Memekak je. Serious ni please stop kan?</div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: x-large;">HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY EIKA SALEH !</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">*fireworks*</span><span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"> </span></div>
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Sekarang kau official penggangur lepasan SPM. All the best for whatever you do or wherever you go because i will always there if you need me. I wont forget you until my last breath bcos you are really truly madly my best friend, my dormmates, my crime-mates, my soulmate!! My du'a will always be with you and InsyaAllah, jika Allah mengizinkan, i hope our friendship doesnt ends when the world ends. Please make it to Jannah. We'll together be there and our family besides Rasulullah SAW. InsyaAllah. Only God knows how thankful am i for giving me the pieces of my lifetime to know you and spend my morning until night with you for five years. I love you eika! Be a good daughter and goodluck test JPJ isnin ni! Belanja aku dipndip please?</div>
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NurFarinaAzwa (Y)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05476146135915373173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5057068600381559908.post-84925766414653230372014-01-11T01:04:00.001-08:002014-01-11T01:04:12.840-08:00Siapa sangka?Assalamualaikum,<br />
Bila buka balik rasa nak gelak jap. Ya Allah setahun rupanya dah berlalu. Post lama lama rasa malu nak baca balik. Gila, ni aku tulis ke?<br />
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Siapa sangka, </div>
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Aku dah jadi penganggur berjaya lepasan SPM</div>
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Aku dalam proses nak dapatkan P</div>
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Aku tak payah nak beli barang sekolah</div>
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Aku sekarang duduk melepak dalam rumah kemas, masak, ternak lemak.</div>
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Aku sekarang makin tembam</div>
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Aku sekarang tengok sinetron TV9 semula, paling last aku tengok masa darjah 6 balik dari sekolah agama</div>
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Aku sekarang....</div>
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Aku sekarang....</div>
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sekarang....</div>
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tengah menaip dalam blog.</div>
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Kahkahkah.</div>
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