im going to be a wife

 T-61 days! 

Feeling sooo surreal. I started counting  when it was 170 plus days, now its only less than 2 months/8 weeks. when people ask me what do i feel, deep down the only answer is "I'm excited." It was the moment ive been waiting for ever since i met him. Now he will mine and i will be his forever and ever sampai syurga. Each day i kept on missing him more. 

Today we chose our invitation card design, chose our song and eyeing our house furniture together. He mentioned "rumah kita" brought out the giddiness in me. I cant wait for our day, sayang. 

I can't wait to not be parted away from you forever. 

I can't wait to be taken care by you. 

I can't wait to pur my love to you. 

I can't wait to cook meals for you. 

I can't wait to wake up next to you and it's just us. 

I can't wait to travel the world with you. 

I can't wait to watch movies together at the comfort of our home. 

I can't wait to buy groceries with you. 

I can't wait to be hugged every single day. 

I can't wait to have someone to come home to. 

I love you sayang. 

I always pray that semoga jodoh kita panjang, may Allah eases our way to be halal, i pray that he gave us just enough rezeki to provide to each other and to always keep you safe and sound wherever you go. I miss you already. 

Truly, far. 

7th May 2023 - I GOT ENGAGED!

 I honestly never imagined i have an engagement day. I just wanted a simple one, but man this wasnt simple. I did not pay much of it but i have spent probably rm2000 for the hantaran, hotel, the board, candles for our doorgift and my outfit. 

Me and Niko went ring hunting, had countless of discussion of what to buy for the hantaran, what colour would we wear and im glad i captured all those moments. The process of getting it done was thrilling and i loved ever seconds of it, i honestly can imagine having this my whole life. He made me so happy in every dating we had. 

On that particular of OUR DAY, i was calm and excited too. I was tired a night before and went straight to sleep at 3am cos i was postcall and after picking up nadia at bus station in midnight, i shut down straight away. But you, haih, the peace of my heart, you sent me such sweet messages a night before we got engaged. 

The day, Our day was perfect. Thank you for making my dream came to life, sayang. Let me just enrolled our pictures here for memories. 

There were thousands of pictures in my keeps. You have been there since i was 18 years old, a teenager eager to lived her life and in between having alot of breakdowns that life threw at her. But you were there throughout all of my ups and picked me up when i was at my lowest. You were there every steps of the way. Now i am a woman that you have shaped me into, it's finally our chance to have the family that we talked about since we were at young age. I love you sayang. Let's slowly indulged in this nervewrecking prcoess of getting married, alright. I promise i will always be here by your side, just how you were there throughout these 9 years of our relationships :)