Day 001. Our home

 

11.11.2023 - 

It was the day that we picked up our house key. It was also the day that we went to pickup our bed from my Bukit Beruntung house. You were there throughout the process with me and i could not be anymore grateful to have you by my side. 

  

12.11.2023 - 

We spent RM400 stocking up the necessities for our home. It was the fist ikea trip that we were really into it. We went into every corner of the decor and imagined if it was in our home, all sorts of emotions rushed through my veins. We sat on the sofa, we sat at the dinner table and in the end we chose the coffee table bcs we wanted to safe some space. All that matters is that im doing this with you.

13.11.2023 - 

Straight from Ecah and Azwan's wedding, we went to our home and did A LOT of cleaning. Gosh, my heart fell for you all over again. I. cannot. believe. that we were that in the same roof, sorting out OUR bed. You also took over to mop the whole house. Ahhh 

I told you i wanted to pee but i was so geli to even step my feet into the toilet cs dead roaches were all over. And heck it smells so bad.. then you straight went inside an remove all the cockroacehs and even clean the toilet bowl for me 😭😭😭 i dont even close the door properly cs im still scared... of nothing..

10 mins later, i told you i wanted to poo.. then i said theres a dead lizard giving off the bad smell :(( you straight away went inside and remove all that, even deep clean inside the toilet bowl again so i could be comfortable... Ahhh, youre a heaven sent. That moment, i knew... im making a correct decision to have you as my husband... I fell for you all over again like when i was 18.

You then cleaned the whole kitchen and we wiped the big ass windows together. 

Took a break to have our first food in that house together, it was the burnt cheesecake from BASK! :) 

Before we headed home, we watched the view together, listed out all the other things that we should buy to complete the house. You kept asking me to think if theres anything we should buy to complete our house, i could not think of any, because for me my home is already complete. 

You, are my home. 

x

im going to be a wife

 T-61 days! 

Feeling sooo surreal. I started counting  when it was 170 plus days, now its only less than 2 months/8 weeks. when people ask me what do i feel, deep down the only answer is "I'm excited." It was the moment ive been waiting for ever since i met him. Now he will mine and i will be his forever and ever sampai syurga. Each day i kept on missing him more. 

Today we chose our invitation card design, chose our song and eyeing our house furniture together. He mentioned "rumah kita" brought out the giddiness in me. I cant wait for our day, sayang. 

I can't wait to not be parted away from you forever. 

I can't wait to be taken care by you. 

I can't wait to pur my love to you. 

I can't wait to cook meals for you. 

I can't wait to wake up next to you and it's just us. 

I can't wait to travel the world with you. 

I can't wait to watch movies together at the comfort of our home. 

I can't wait to buy groceries with you. 

I can't wait to be hugged every single day. 

I can't wait to have someone to come home to. 

I love you sayang. 

I always pray that semoga jodoh kita panjang, may Allah eases our way to be halal, i pray that he gave us just enough rezeki to provide to each other and to always keep you safe and sound wherever you go. I miss you already. 

Truly, far. 

7th May 2023 - I GOT ENGAGED!

 I honestly never imagined i have an engagement day. I just wanted a simple one, but man this wasnt simple. I did not pay much of it but i have spent probably rm2000 for the hantaran, hotel, the board, candles for our doorgift and my outfit. 

Me and Niko went ring hunting, had countless of discussion of what to buy for the hantaran, what colour would we wear and im glad i captured all those moments. The process of getting it done was thrilling and i loved ever seconds of it, i honestly can imagine having this my whole life. He made me so happy in every dating we had. 

On that particular of OUR DAY, i was calm and excited too. I was tired a night before and went straight to sleep at 3am cos i was postcall and after picking up nadia at bus station in midnight, i shut down straight away. But you, haih, the peace of my heart, you sent me such sweet messages a night before we got engaged. 

The day, Our day was perfect. Thank you for making my dream came to life, sayang. Let me just enrolled our pictures here for memories. 

There were thousands of pictures in my keeps. You have been there since i was 18 years old, a teenager eager to lived her life and in between having alot of breakdowns that life threw at her. But you were there throughout all of my ups and picked me up when i was at my lowest. You were there every steps of the way. Now i am a woman that you have shaped me into, it's finally our chance to have the family that we talked about since we were at young age. I love you sayang. Let's slowly indulged in this nervewrecking prcoess of getting married, alright. I promise i will always be here by your side, just how you were there throughout these 9 years of our relationships :)

Major life update - family meeting turned out to be......

 11.3.2023

We just got back from Dr Saddiq's wedding. I knew our family dinner was tonight. We did not plan to have the ceremony of sarung cincin during the dinner. 

It was raining that night, and it was the first time our family gather together. Picturing them in a table together- crazy. I cant imagine this day has finally come. All the rendezvous we did while we were teenagers ended up us discussing and planning in the joining of two families. I felt nervous, happy, grateful, disbelief, overwhelmed!

I still remember that night was raining cold and my hands were shaking time mak dia nak sarungkan cincin. Like-this finally it!!! im off the marketttt hahahaha. Bro it was awkward too cos at the back of my mind was afraid that she wouldnt liked me but i quickly brushed it off. I have the sense that our family was not in a good terms or maybe it was the awkwarrdness, but im glad, they could accept niko. The man i have loved a decade of my life. 

Oh Allah swt, please sustained this happiness in my life. These are all i have ever dreamed of. Thank you for making it this year. Thank you for allowing us to be together. 

Now, the fun part! Planning the engagement!