7th May 2023 - I GOT ENGAGED!

 I honestly never imagined i have an engagement day. I just wanted a simple one, but man this wasnt simple. I did not pay much of it but i have spent probably rm2000 for the hantaran, hotel, the board, candles for our doorgift and my outfit. 

Me and Niko went ring hunting, had countless of discussion of what to buy for the hantaran, what colour would we wear and im glad i captured all those moments. The process of getting it done was thrilling and i loved ever seconds of it, i honestly can imagine having this my whole life. He made me so happy in every dating we had. 

On that particular of OUR DAY, i was calm and excited too. I was tired a night before and went straight to sleep at 3am cos i was postcall and after picking up nadia at bus station in midnight, i shut down straight away. But you, haih, the peace of my heart, you sent me such sweet messages a night before we got engaged. 

The day, Our day was perfect. Thank you for making my dream came to life, sayang. Let me just enrolled our pictures here for memories. 

There were thousands of pictures in my keeps. You have been there since i was 18 years old, a teenager eager to lived her life and in between having alot of breakdowns that life threw at her. But you were there throughout all of my ups and picked me up when i was at my lowest. You were there every steps of the way. Now i am a woman that you have shaped me into, it's finally our chance to have the family that we talked about since we were at young age. I love you sayang. Let's slowly indulged in this nervewrecking prcoess of getting married, alright. I promise i will always be here by your side, just how you were there throughout these 9 years of our relationships :)

Major life update - family meeting turned out to be......

 11.3.2023

We just got back from Dr Saddiq's wedding. I knew our family dinner was tonight. We did not plan to have the ceremony of sarung cincin during the dinner. 

It was raining that night, and it was the first time our family gather together. Picturing them in a table together- crazy. I cant imagine this day has finally come. All the rendezvous we did while we were teenagers ended up us discussing and planning in the joining of two families. I felt nervous, happy, grateful, disbelief, overwhelmed!

I still remember that night was raining cold and my hands were shaking time mak dia nak sarungkan cincin. Like-this finally it!!! im off the marketttt hahahaha. Bro it was awkward too cos at the back of my mind was afraid that she wouldnt liked me but i quickly brushed it off. I have the sense that our family was not in a good terms or maybe it was the awkwarrdness, but im glad, they could accept niko. The man i have loved a decade of my life. 

Oh Allah swt, please sustained this happiness in my life. These are all i have ever dreamed of. Thank you for making it this year. Thank you for allowing us to be together. 

Now, the fun part! Planning the engagement!