SO DONE WITH TWENTY TWENTY

Hello,

It's been awhile. 

Now we're into 2020, a year that everyone was looked forward to get into. Who would have thought, that it turned into a

PANDEMIC YEAR.

involving every single countries in the world, Covid-19 invaded like nobody business. And it's still here but cases are currently decreasing in trend. Because of it, my whole is on hold. Everything is postponed.

Restriction movement order (RMO)/ PKP was ordered by the government, university closed down and I've been spending 4 months at home. Including post P2S1 holiday and electives in Hospital Shah Alam, safe to say i've been spending almost a year now, (from Jan 2020 - June 2020) and will be continue until semester restart, in DECEMBER 2020. My whole life sucks. Dreams of graduating in 2021 and getting married after were ruined. Now i don't know what to expect anymore.

Well, as usual, i'm not comfortable staying at home for a long period of time. They quarrel and i have no one to talk to. Father was caught cheated with someone and fgs i don't even wanna know. Mom was treated like a slave and i can't do anything to change that. Mom had to in order to win father's heart back. And is willingly to be treated like a slave. 

Akak is happily married for almost a year now. No babies yet. Coming soon hopefully. 

Niko is so far away. Dont't get me started with how devastated i was. We were supposed to spend our last 2 months together in Melaka. Bcos of virus, UTEM was closed until god knows when and now he's back in Perak. Due to prohibition of border crossing, we haven't met for 3 months. It fucking sucks.

I just met him last Saturday. We spent the whole weekend together. It was the best. thing. ever happened in 2020. I love him so much. 

He's graduating soon, in July. I pray only the best coming in his way. He is my gem, he is my rock. He is my heart. I am his. 

Farid left Icha before 2020, on New year's eve. She's still recovering, still doesn't look good. Breakup hurts, and i know.

Let's just wait for my future self to update what is happening soon. 

till later,

Bye xx