It's 2021 bitches.

 Hello, It's 31st January today.

     And it had been the longest month ever. I just finished my medicine posting for 3 freaking months (supposed only 8 weeks) from November 2020-Jan 2021. Everyday was a struggle, anxiety, feeling incompetent and im doubting my career everyday. We didnt got the chance to even go to the hospital and honestly i think that's the reason why i struggle with my medicine posting. I can't remember what was taught and i only had to imagine, plus with the pressure put behind us, esp by Prof M and Dr K, it's not helping. Don't know la dr batch keluaran covid ni bodoh semuanya.

    25th january i planned to have a picnic birthday with niko but we're still in MCO period shits. Can't even cross border coz currently im in Melaka and he's in Cheras. Nevertheless, i hoped i did make him happy that day. I bought him a customized leather cardholder. It came 2 days early! and alllll of his favourite food in a day! Dominos pizza, chicken, durian lava cake, 2 pints of inside scoop icecream, 500ml of macadamia coffee. I really love seeing him happy and i hope i can spoil him for the rest of my life. His smile and laugh are the reasons that i make it everyday. 

Oh and did i mention he bought himself a new iPHONE?! I'm sooooo happy for him!!! He got the latest iPhone 12, 128gb. Thank god coz hid iphone6plus was the worse. hahaha

 We're 7 years old this year! and i can't wait to spend my whole life with him... couldnt really imagine seeing him everyday though... must be really nice coz i get to cook and feed him a lot!!! He deserve all the best thing in this world, honestly. He's the best boyfriend in the whole world. Ceh i speak like mcm baru couple hahah no but really all i wanted at the end of the day is speaking to him on the phone. There's not even a single day where he'll sleep without me, he's so clingy and manja. Miss you a lot sayang. 💘 

2021 really feels like 2020 part two lol. I just want to graduate and get the hell out of manipal. Can't really decide whether i wanna continue being a doctor though. I just wanna have a happy life and do what i enjoy doing for the rest of my life coz life so short to waking up and be anxious everyday 😭😭😭

That's it for my life update, let's see when will i write further haha

Till then, xoxo.